Simply, it's just that first feeling of shock. And then you close your eyes and you know that when you open them, you will wake up from a terrible nightmare. But you open your eyes. And you don't wake up... and you are scared. And you want to blame it on someone, anyone. Just not them. Definitely not them. Nurses, doctors, other staff, hell, even the cigarette company. Anyone who had any impact on their life must die. But then you wake up. And you're a 16 year old girl with 1 friend, 2 ex-fri...

It's hard to be a grown up, when the world's so big and all everyone wants to do is get fucked.

You dream of being famous. Then you think you've grown up. You dream of becoming rich. Then you realize you haven't grown up. And then you do. You work your ass off for years, and then you think you've finally grown up. You don't realize, but you throw out your life. And then you quit caring. Then you grow up. And you realize you will never be Mrs. Marsha Neverland, MD. You will never be Mrs. Sandy Waiting, PhD. You will never be Dr. Hannah Worthy. You will never become anything but Felicia N...

See me, like me Ask me, love me Lead me, hurt me Use me, abuse me All so lovingly

I was trapped in a cage My mind was confused Day after day I ran through that maze But now I see it was my love for you That caused me so much pain Now I can take back my life I was completely insane To hell with wishing to be your wife I was just longing to be with someone Someone very much like yourself For you I would have picked up a gun You are hazardous to my health I wanted you gone You finally went I felt like an orphaned fawn This time we both got the hint You used me...

Monsters and goblins Eyes and teeth Shadows of darkness Lurking beneath Outside the window A bird will call You will have fear As he's grabbed by a claw A door will crack A floorboard will creek A big dark house on a dead end street

Use me, blame me Hurt me, expose me Abuse me, cheat on me Beat me, burn me Yell at me, hate me As long as you're with me, I'm alive

Gossip about one another Intentionally hurt each other Run after one another Like to always have a lover Secretly wish to be the other

A person who is there for you For whatever he puts you through Right there, she's already been Ice cream trips at 2 a.m. Enough to make you puke Never does her presence grow old Daisy stems and tree leaves, yuck! Finally someone like me Or is she not Really now who would use you for a guy Every year she was so trustful Very soon you will hate her like I do Every night I cry over her and my ex-boyfriend Really, she's just another queen bee.

Love was what you lied to me Once you made it seem so true Very soon you will see Every night I sit and cry, waiting just for you

I see the razor I hear the call I feel the pain I smell the blood And finally I taste my death

A shadow in the dark A ghost Sitting way up high A ferris wheel Loud noises in the woods A gun Loud panting in the room next door A loving couple A thousand words left unsaid A breakup A million people left unknown The life of a shy child

Loving you was the easiest thing every Though nobody could ever see why You hurt me over and over You know, I never used to cry I never wanted to hurt you Every single time I looked into your eyes My heart skipped a beat Our relationship was based on your lies I was always so happy between seeing you and not But during and afterward I would cry I guess it just goes to show For every rose that blooms, one dies

Secrets and stories Smiles and laughs Shopping and talking Clothing and shoes Crushes and first loves Drinking and smoking Driving and singing Thinking alike and finishing sentences All just stupid memories Stupid recollections of you

Dead is our rose Is this how it is meant to be What did I think would happen You never really loved me Are you listening Now I say my last goodbye